Just a Phase.

My blogging has been lacking and truthfully it's my fault. I have this problem with over filling my life with things and then running around like a crazy person trying to accomplish them all. People often tell me that they're impressed with all the things I juggle but the truth is, I don't. In fact, I'm a terrible juggler. If you lived with me you'd see that my dishes aren't done, that there's laundry on the floor in almost every room and that we got take out for dinner at least 4 times this month already.

I go through this "transition phase," with every baby I think. It takes me quite awhile to admit that I have to cut some things out of my priorities list now that things are different. I'm pretty stubborn and even though I know it ahead of time, I still try to keep "doing it all," for months until I finally swallow my pride. I'm approaching that phase now.

Life with the littles is amazing and exhausting. Especially for one as particular as me. I hate that my kitchen/living room isn't straightened up when I go to bed. I hate that I haven't prepared a beautiful meal in months. I hate that I'm still barely running a 5k even 6 months after giving birth.

But you know what I love?

Listening to Owen tell me about his day.
Watching June "dance," with her princess figurines.

Snuggling up to Rand's squishy cheeks.

Seeing Tim's scooter come up the driveway.

The fact that I'm still kicking, even on 4 hours of sleep.

Oh, and cookies. Always room for cookies.

I may not be able to do it all, but I definitely feel like I have it all.

August: The jist of it.

 

 

 

Cool Mom had a brief comeback for a few weeks and then the baby kicked my trash for it. He pretty much owns me at this point. But with Owen back in school and June in a friend's preschool co-op there's a chance she may return before the baby is born!

Our kind of playdates

We've been really lucky to have met some really amazing people here. The other day we invited everyone over to the pool for a play date and I couldn't helped but feel blessed with such amazing friends, adorable children and incredible weather.

They definitely make Saipan an even more wonderful place to live.

And my 18.5 week belly.
The little man is quite the kicker lately! I started to feel him move about 2 weeks ago and this week I noticed I can see him move as well! It's my favorite part of pregnancy and I was thrilled that it's finally here! I've been feeling pretty good still. (Thank Heaven!) The fatigue hasn't really gone away but with the heat and humidity here I am doubting that it will. Running has started to get a bit difficult this week but I'm pretty determined to go as long as I can. 

I've been craving:

Fruit. Any kind of fruit. Oranges, Apples, Mangoes, Grapes, Pineapple, anything.

Vegetables. Carrots, and LOTS of salads.

Beyond that I have to really push myself to eat meat. It's just so darn hot!

Mother's Day 2013

Mother's Day meant so much to me this year. I was so aware of the love that my family feels for me and how lucky I am to be a mother at all. What's more is I'm able to do it with such an incredible man.

We went down to my favorite beach and I savored every snuggle.

And every kiss.

I can't believe how much this boy has grown! 

And my baby, who isn't really a baby anymore.

A husband who makes living in this GORGEOUS place a reality.

Sharing finds on the beach.

Monkey on Dad's back.

She's such a climber these days!

So grateful for the Mothers in my life. My own mother, my Mother in Law, my friends and even those who are yet to be mothers. I love you all and are thankful for your presence in my life.

Happy Mother's Day Everyone!

Knocked Up.

Pregnancy FAQs

Q: How are you feeling?
A: I'm feeling okay. I had a few weeks where it was rough but I'm managed to hold all my food down and keep up with running so I consider myself pretty lucky. Mostly I'm just tired all the time. And hungry but nothing sounds good. And nauseated. Basically, I'm pregnant.

Q: One baby?
A: We actually found out that there were two babies. Unfortunately, one stopped developing (very early on) and while it's still there my doctor says it will take care of itself soon. They would have been fraternal twins. I guess the medical term for it is "vanishing twin syndrome." We are still sad about it but are extremely grateful for the healthy baby that IS still there.

Q: Do you think it’s a boy or a girl?
A: I'm convinced it's another boy. My pregnancy feels almost identical to the pregnancy I experienced with Owen.

Q: Are you going to find out the sex before the baby's born?
A: Absolutely. Tim teased me with the idea of waiting but said that HE would be the only one to know. This obviously would not work because I would break and get him to tell me so we're not even going to try.

Q: Were you trying, or was this an "oops!" baby?
A: We were trying. I've wanted this baby for a long time and we finally felt like it was the right time.

Q: Are you going to give birth naturally?
A: I don't really have a choice. Saipan's hospital doesn't offer epidurals unless you're having a c-section and those are only for emergencies. I have to admit I'm a bit nervous about this.

Q: Are you going to continue running while pregnant?
A: Yes. I've been running for a year so my doctor doesn't think it's any problem. I've slowed down a bit and am no longer doing long distances. I did my 10k for the year and now I'm sticking to 3-5 miles.

Q: Have you thought of names for the baby?
A: Yes. And for the first time we have names for both genders that we truly like! Haleighluyah!

Q: Are you scared?
A: Yes. I'm scared of losing the baby, I'm scared of not being a good mom to three kids, I'm scared of not getting enough sleep, I'm scared of giving birth without medicine, I'm scared of lots of things. But mostly I'm insanely excited. We love this baby so much already and I'm so ready for all the ups and downs of pregnancy.

Q: When are you due?
A: I'm due October 15th. I'm not very far along yet but I knew I'd be showing really early so I spilled the beans already. Plus, I was just too crazy excited.

Funny Story:

June was actually the first to know. Out of nowhere she walked up to me, patted my belly and said, "Bebe!" and did the sign for baby. At first I thought she was just calling me chubby but found it strange because she had never done this before and hasn't even seen a pregnant woman. After about a week of her doing this my curiosity got the better of me and I tested a full 3 days early and STILL got a positive reading! I was so excited I was jumping up and down, giggling and screaming. 

Needless to say, we are over the moon about this baby. 

boo-yah.

And we are beyond thrilled..



{B, A, B, Y!}
{Fall 2013}
{Bebe!}